Welcome! My life here is an open book and I’m humbled to share it with you. I’d share my bacon with you but we’re just getting to know each other. I can get away with telling you stories about my meat-eating prowess. And, while it may be true that I have an affinity for living room dancing, if I were to claim that I lived a life full of good health, it would be a bold faced lie.

Looking for a new drug: I was, however, blessed with an insatiable appetite. My stomach doesn’t quit. My heart is hungry too. “Give me more. I want more!” Yet, I rarely felt satisfied.  I would fill up on food, pour my heart out on others, and nothing. I still felt empty.

The game changer: I stopped chasing the next high after the birth of my third child. That’s when I quit eating Doritos in bed and started my gut healing journey. The pairing of quality food and fitness has changed my life. I’m finally off the self-medicating roller coaster!!

The irony: I still struggle. A lot. But I’ve learned to re-imagine my dreams, most of which haven’t been realized. Like the time I dreamed of becoming a lawyer and settled on a journalism degree instead.

Stumbling to become real: My holistic journey is more like a crooked path than a straight line. It’s been filled with thorns, processed food, too much caffeine, and too much wine. Whatever I could get my hands on to numb the pain. Some might call this weak or even say it’s ugly. But I say that doesn’t matter. Because once you’re real with yourself you can’t be ugly except to people who don’t understand.

Go easy on yourself, kid: These days I’m treating my body kinder. I’m nourishing my heart as well. I’d like to think I’m headed in a different emotional direction now. And when I come to my senses, I will remember all is grace. God’s grace changes everything.

Stop hiding and start shining: I believe greatness is trapped in everyone. I believe we’re all called to a higher purpose. The reality is that fear prevents most of us from doing anything about it. That’s why I started this blog. I needed a place to dump my imperfections, even if it means admitting I’m an awkward dancer.

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      1. Aye … I do stop by her blog *smiles* …. ok…next time I comment on her blog and see you I will say hi there too…ohh…perhaps we can confuse her with our comments somehow hahaa Shhhh…she isnt looking here is she? lol

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    1. Yay! I’m glad the goodies arrived. I was going back and forth with the printing company. If you’re up to it, send a pic of you rockin’ the graphic tee. Also, I was wearing a Fanta shirt today.

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  1. Hey! Ok, I know it took me wayyyyy too long, but I’ve got the picture up with me in my T-shirt. I must say, IP LOVED the shirt and it got me a little sugar…Thanks! I gave you some props and a link in my lastest blog, plus tagged you in an online version of tag. I haven’t ever followed through with one of these before, but I decided to play along this time. Please, please, do not feel like you have to keep it going. If you want to great, if not, no biggie. I just wanted to let you know I linked you and your blog. Thank again for the Bon-A-Fide Mommy honor and I hope all is well in your world! Kerry

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  3. Hey Anka

    Reading your introduction we seem to have the crucial characteristic of bonbon loving in common. It’s as good a place to start as any!

    Don’t know how I ended up here but glad I did

    Steven

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  4. Hey girl, Ms. Anka….. I have nominated you for an award. I hadnt noticed if you accept them, but, you can find it on my latest post…and Im so silly…I know nothing of awards, all those rules and what not. But, everything I say on the post is true !! Have a lovely day Anka.

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    1. Amy, I’m the perpetual student. I could stay in school forever. As for the application part, there’s still tons to learn. I’m making small, steady changes. Kind of like “What About Bob” . . . baby steps.

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  5. I love this! I just saw it know. Love the name. Looks great. I want to visit you in that hotel on the coast of Italy. Me too, Anka. I’m drawn to that place for some reason. You look beautiful! Amy xox

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    1. Thanks, Amy. I finally settled on a name that represents me better. As for Italy, it’s a date. Imagine all the pasta we could eat. And sleep, I could use sleep.

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  6. Okay, no wonder I had such a hard time finding you! You’ve totally outdone yourself with this place–it’s gorg! And now that you’re back in my life, I’m never letting you go 🙂 Off to stalk the site for pics and info of the new bambino!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  7. Hi Anka,
    Don’t you just love serendipity?!? I’m so glad you popped over yesterday because it led me right over to you. I’m eager to hear more about your babies, your passions and read your words….you had me a “vulnerability”
    I’ll be back…pinky promise 🙂
    Michelle

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      1. You’re a lucky lady!! The leaves don’t turn rich colors in my part of the world, California. But Fall is in the air. There’s a light balmy breeze outside. This is my favorite time of year! Where are you from, if you don’t mind me asking?

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      2. I love California!
        Actually, there are unique things about each state that stand out to me.
        I’m from smack dab in the middle of the country–Kansas. In fact, I wrote a whole series earlier this year about life in middle America as well as hosted guest speakers from all over the world. You are so right about the connections we make in the blogosphere. I already know that I’ve found friends for life…old and new 😉

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      3. Kansas, wow! I know a few random tidbits about this state–Walt Disney got his start in Kansas City, Dorothy from Wizard of Oz, and I’ve heard there’s good grilling going on. Do you eat fried okra? I enjoy eating it but most people don’t like the texture.

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      4. Tee! Hee! I have loved visiting with you today!
        We DO have great BBQ and my family loves okra. I grew it in my garden this summer and had so much that we couldn’t keep up! I like it in gumbo, but get a little squiggly when I fry it–like you said, odd texture. It’s been so fun to get to know you today. My day is winding down a bit, so I may hop over and read some of your archives 🙂

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      1. Another blogger made the Gibber Shadow people for me. I love what she came up with! I’m so glad you did join and I hope that you’ll be back. There’s a lot of dumbassery around here! lol

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      2. 9, 5, and 1. Some days are bonkers around here. In fact, I’m getting ready to take baby to get his shots. I feel bad that he has to get poked. Shots make me QUEASY!!

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    1. My Dearest Anita, you always light up my day!! And today was a VERY long day. I watched five kids for six hours straight–my brain is mush. Wish I could walk over to your house. I know you’d have wine waiting for me.

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