Finding Courage, The Chandelier Way

I often wonder what it’s like to swing from the chandelier.

Lately, I’ve been wondering what it’d be like to write without pleasing an audience. But I’ve never had the guts to try it–at least not the chandelier part.

I’m almost there with the writing part. Almost.

After dissecting Sia’s “Chandelier” line by line, I feel different about facing new challenges. Different about writing. I want to write without reservation.

I want to find freedom in my frailties.

I want to write without worrying how others interpret my life experiences. I want to write about my ‘not so pretty’ transformations as a woman and mother, even if my posts don’t resonate with every reader that stops by.

This is the risk I’m willing to take to stay true to my convictions.

As for the song, it bypassed the stubborn parts of my mind and pierced my heart in a way I didn’t expect. It’s given me the much needed courage to write again.

I will continue to satisfy my creative needs despite nagging insecurities.

These past few months have been rough. New baby . . . sleepless nights . . . I’m both wallowing and overcoming obstacles in my life. Yet, through it all, I find myself being stuck somewhere between hope and hope.

Words (lyrics) have power. They move you. Break you. Change you.

I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier
I’m gonna live like tomorrow doesn’t exist
Like it doesn’t exist
I’m gonna fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry
I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier

But I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down, won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ’cause I’m just holding on for tonight
Help me, I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down, won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ’cause I’m just holding on for tonight

The sun will come up. I won’t run forever. I hear a triumphant melody in the future. And the tap tap tapping of my keyboard . . .

Has a song ever made you feel like you’re not alone? Which song speaks to you?


21 thoughts on “Finding Courage, The Chandelier Way

  1. It is amazing that you chose to write about this song today. I just downloaded it and it’s been on repeat since. I love it. And my favourite lines are “I’m gonna live like tomorrow doesn’t exist” and  “keep my glass full until morning light” Because today is all we really have and it is up to us to keep our glass full. Not half full or half empty. FULL. 

    Glad you’re writing again. 


    1. Vernette, I’m glad you shared this with me! I love the line “live like tomorrow doesn’t exist” as well. It really is about making the MOST of every moment. Thanks my beautiful friend for such a gracious reminder.


    1. Nelson, I can always count on you for a pick me up! As for writing, I feel like there’s a tug-of-war going on inside. Fortunately, my passion has been reignited. Hope you and your family are enjoying summer.


      1. I’m waiting for mine to be reignited. After I got through the worst of the side effects, I was hoping I was back on track but no such luck. However, things are going well and we have a cruise planned in October fron NY to Quebec City.

        Keep writing Anka. You’re very good.


  2. Hi Anka! So great to see you. I love the new title and focus. I love honeybees. We can’t live without them. As for songs, hmm, sometimes they are just what we need to hear to pick ourselves up. Hope you are well.


    1. Amy, I’ve missed you and can’t wait to catch up.
      Funny quote I read about bees: “If the bee disappears from the surface of the earth, man would have no more than four years left to live.” So yeah, I guess we can’t live without bees.


    1. Doesn’t sound glamorous for anybody, especially when you have to climb a ladder to prop yourself up. That’s why I prefer dangling from a hammock. If I fall, at least I’ll plunge only three feet to the ground.


  3. So great to see you back writing again, Anka. Objectively speaking, there has never been any doubt about you writing. It’s always good, very good. Sometimes our muse goes on vacation, or prolonged leave of absence, but then it comes back eager to work again. This is a long way of saying welcome back!


    1. Thanks, Tiny! Your words speak life to me. And yes, I do believe my muse went on vacation. That, or she got temporarily buried under a pile of diapers. I do believe I found her again.


  4. I’m swinging from that chandelier with you my friend! It makes me so happy to see you back to writing again. I know you’re still lacking sleep and the challenges of a newborn and begin outnumbered, but I’m you are carving a bit of time for something that is all yours…your great writing. Welcome back! And, I LOVE the new look and direction you’ve taken with the blog! Virtual high-five!


    1. Ahh, it’s so nice to have you here, Leah. Feels like home again. We’ve been with each other since the beginning. You know what I appreciate most about your friendship (outside of your writing)? Is that you and I always pick up where we left off. Hoping that our paths will cross one day in ‘real’ life.

      Also, thanks for the high-five. I needed that!


    1. Nnena, sorry about the delayed response! This comment slipped by somehow. In any case, I’ve had Mary J Blige’s song “No More Drama” swirling in my head on more the one occasion.
      The title speaks for itself, right? Hope all is well in your world my beautiful friend.


    1. Sound advice, NTT. The opportunity to focus on my writing sure beats swinging from a chandelier. It’s less risky and certainly more realistic. As you know, I’m afraid of heights.


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